Hello World!

Me in my home world in Metaplace

Me in my home world in Metaplace

This is a gaming blog so I will start with the gaming credentials.  I am a woman gamer that has been playing since I first spied an Atari 2600 at my aunts house when I was around eight years old.  Space Invaders was the game and after playing it the entire visit I was hooked.  My parents sealed the deal when they bought me and my brother a ColecoVision for Christmas that year.

Since then I have played just about everything except for the latest systems since I switched to only gaming on my PC and Wii is the last few years.  My favorite games are RPG or in recent years MMOGs, though I will play anything at least once just to see if I like it.  As for virtual worlds I spend a huge amount of time in Metaplace, a new virtual world created by Raph Koster, and I’m a very active creator of content there, but I also drop into Second Life from time to time.  Currently, I am playing Champions Online and Dragon Age is on my list of games that I really need to get a hold of when my budget allows.

Which minority groups do I belong to and why am I here?  To start I wasn’t always a woman gamer, I started off as a guy gamer, well on the outside I was.  I was born a boy and lived my life as a man until I was 29.  I just couldn’t take it any more and had to come clean to the world that I was a woman and have always felt like one.  My whole life was thrown up in the air and what came down was mostly shattered into pieces.  Relationships were strained or ruined, arguments were had, and life continued only this time with me completely happy for the first time in my life.

The smoke cleared and 4 years later I am in a new job, in a new house, and have disappeared as a man completely.  They call it stealth in the Transsexual (TS) community when one of us disappears completely as our birth gender, a term I have always hated because it implies lying.  My past didn’t disappear because I lied about my past or had huge amounts of surgery or moved to a new city, though many TS people do these things to live free of their past.  I am stealth because I don’t look like a man, don’t sound like a man, so no one ever thinks to ask me if I used to be a man.  My life reset and the only things that stayed with me were my family, well those that hadn’t dropped me out of their lives.  I am happily married to my wife of six years, if our marriage is still valid is another confusing question that varies state to state, we have a son that is five and I have a daughter from my previous marriage.  To the world, I am an out lesbian with a couple of really cool kids living in a very conservative area that doesn’t particularly like out lesbians.  Inside, I feel guilty that I am not doing enough to make sure TS people like me aren’t forgotten and ignored, even if you can’t tell we are here we could be your coworkers, your neighbors, or your friends.

Many TS people become an invisible minority and invisible minorities have a really hard time not being discriminated against.  I am here to make sure I speak up for myself as a TS woman, a lesbian, and a mother that happens to be a gamer.  Games were my first coping mechanism, they were a place where I could be myself or lose myself completely and I can’t think of a more fitting way to give back than talk about how games apply to me as a person and how they look from my unique angle.

– chooseareality

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6 Responses to Hello World!

  1. Brinstar says:

    Welcome, choosereality! Looking forward to your posts!

  2. Cuppycake says:

    Welcome chooseareality :)

  3. Alex says:

    Nice to meet you, chooseareality! Welcome to the blog!

  4. Hot Tramp says:

    Over at Transgriot, Monica talked about the term “passing,” and said she prefers “blending” to describe trans people who don’t ping cis people as trans. Which is also better than “stealth,” I think. Anyway, hi!

  5. Jessoteric says:

    Hello, Chooseareality! :3

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